More than meets the eye...

There is something achingly fall in the air today. As I drove to church this morning, there was this very grey fall like day trying to form. The humidity however would not let the day that "should" have been happen. There was this summer like presence that would not let go. My mind was not ready for what was going to take place this morning. I was thinking about cool breezes, and leaves changing color...and then it hit me.

There is way more than one reason that I am in this place, in this town at this time. God has provided for me in ways that I was not even aware existed. For this I am amazed and amazingly grateful. This has only become clear to me right here, right now.

As I sat listening to the preacher preach It was clear to me. God's providence has been at play in every step of the way. The career path...has been god's path. I came to this city for a job. This came after going to another city for a job. After leaving a different city and job. The opportunities that have come and gone in the midst of this process I think have come at times when God knew what was going on and needed to get things done. This is vague...I am aware of this. Lets just say that when certain things have come open, and I have passed for whatever reason, it has all lead up to right now. Being where I am, living where I am living and being in community with the people I have come to know in this town. This is where God has me, and for right now, I believe it is where he will keep me. So I came here for 1 reason. The Job. But I believe God brought me here for many reasons. If I had selected my path differently, I am sure God would be there with me too. This is just one of those hind-sight moments where I realized if I had chosen different...There is a distinct possibility that I would be in a very different place. I mean that figuratively as much as I do Literally.

Right now I am listening to: Air Conditioner Hum (the window unit kind)

I can read!

Right now i am listening to Sigur Ros on KEXP. If you've never experienced "john in the morning" on KEXP...i highly reccomend. (kexp.org)

I am reading a book by a guy named Rob Bell. The book is called "Velvet Elvis: Repainting the Christian Faith". I would say I am about halfway through. This is a guy who says he stumbled into his current gig as a pastor of a church in grand rapids michigan. his sole purpose is to make people understand, feel, know, experience God. I am not just talking about the book, i am talking about what it appears to be is is purpose in life. the book takes a walk down the path of looking at the christain faith in a way that questions everything. which for some would be considered heresy or blasphemy. I have read reviews of the book where people are outraged with some of his claims. I think he is just taking it all back down to what the "christian" life was supposed to be. He is stripping things down, asking questions and taking a good hard look at what the faith has become to many many people. I personally can relate to things he refers to about people who have grown up going to church and then walking away, because the only truth they ( I ) have ever known is what was spoon fed/beat into the minds of the youth group. So I guess what I'm saying here, is...I am half way through this book, people have been slamming the book, and raving about the book. Me, i think there is truth in it, I also think there are things that need to be questioned and probed...I really do not think he wrote to be the christian handbook for a new generation. I think he wrote it to make you think. probe. question. and experience the christian faith in a deeper way...

this is my 2 cents.

Lost it

This is supposed to be somewhat therapuetic right? At this point the therapizing i would like to take care of would be throwing this computer out the window. I know i should not blame the computer, but i really cannot throw html code at a wall so...the computer will have to take the wrath. I just lost a post. This is why the blogging thing to me loses it's novelty because i feel compelled to write...then i lose it. so going and trying to re-create the lost post just doesn't feel right. For now this is what you get.

Right now i am listening to Sufjan Stevens - Seven Swans.

CS. Lewis

Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.